Time.........

~~continuation of last post~~

Only time can heal a wounded heart.

A wounded heart can never fully heal.

With the strongest of all medicine, it cannot re-mend a heart that's torn apart.

A heart's that torn, will be torn forever.

Only through time will a heart heal once again.

Just as time can heal all wounds, it may heal a heart.

Though a heart may heal

a scar will form. A scar of of pain, a scar of humiliation.

Though it may heal, it will leave a scar.

A scar that will never be gone.

A scar that will last an eternity.....................................

~~I just made this poem up in like 2 minutes~~ 

I know it's not perfection, it's what I'm thinking right now while watching Flower Boy Next Door................... :D

A Shattered Heart.............

OMG!! I got the stimulus from the Korean Drama Flower Boy Next Door!!! :D

Within a shattered heart are hundreds of pieces of fragments....... Within each piece of fragment holds it's own story............................... Stories of painful memories; memories that people try to hide, to push away from their hearts, their minds, and withing themselves. Yet nothing disappears, it only returns with even more force, like slapping a ball on the ground, with only it returning with even more force................................................

Yet somehow there's always a string..... A string that re-mends the fragmented pieces of the heart........ Everything broken leaves a scar; a scar that might be invisible, yet it's still there............. Some try to remove it through time; however, it never fades...........................................................

~~Creepy Asian Guy~~ EWWW!!!!!!! HELP ME!!!!!!!

OMG!! There's this Creepy Asian Guy in my gym class and he's really scary........ He looks harmless, but he's really scary..... He looks like one of those people that don't' seem to be harmless but really are!!!!!! OMG!!!! HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway the reason that he's really creepy is that he has a really freakish tendency to stare at you, and whenever he stares, he gives off this really creepy smile....................................................... OMG!!!! In gym class with my friends Sam, Jerry and Albert, whenever I turn around he's somehow always behind me and staring at me........... OMG!! Today was like the 12th time where he's behind me.................. OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Also, whenever we're in the locker room, obviously my friends and I change...... DUH! That's what locker rooms are supposed to be for..................... Sadly that creepy guy's locker is straight across from mine......... EWWWW!!!!!!! First of all, whenever I arrive there he's always there smiling...... OMG! Freaky enough..... Then when I put my stuff down, he always stares at my friends change..... OMG!!!! I notice it because I have to turn around to put my backpack on the bench and he's always right there.......... YUCK! Then when I change, my friends all say he stares at my back!!!!!! EWWWWW!!!!!!!! CREEPY!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway I just had to say this because it's been on my mind for like the last two days......... 

Let's hope you viewers don't know a person like him......... OMG!!!! The hair on my arms still stand up from the frightfulness.......................

K-Pop Club!!!!!!! :D

LOL!!!!!! Anyway today I went to K-Pop club for some random reasons, that I don't even know why.......... LOL! :D 

Anyway, I went and K-Pop club was actually quite boring...... The club president, this drama-queen, whose voice is so annoying, and whom I hate, said usually they play games and stuff so we'll see next week............... :D 

I got home at like 5:20ish, and I'm so tired right now.............. Last night I didn't have a good night sleep, and I kept hearing my sister blabbing on the phone until like 3, so that made it even worst............. :'( Today was just a boring day, so my life right now is boring.................

My friend Brandon also ditched me, adding to the bad parts................................of the day....................................... But on the bright side, I finally talked to this guy called Bryan, and I like kinda knew him but he wouldn't talk to me......... UGGGGHHHHHHH............ He's a friend of my friends, and every single day in lunch, he would sit across from me on the lunch tables and stare at me, but he wouldn't speak a word to me............... I find it so annoying, but finally, finallyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy he talked with me....... LOL!

Tomorrow is going to be a long day because I got to go to peer tutoring as a tutor, so I gotta go to school earlier............ WAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!! It's all for the credits.... Sigghhhhhhh...........................

Anyway, this sums up my day so far, and it's isn't good.......... 

P.S. I'm happy that I don't have a ton of homework today!!! YAH!!!

My Birthday........ :D

Okay so today is my birthday............. I should be happy but I cannot because I'm another year older....... This usually comes from those girls in their late twenties complaining "What's so great about a birthday? It's just another milestone of being old................" LOL!!!!! :D But that's what I felt today..........

Anyway I spent today somewhat like I wanted to spend it...... Throughout the year I made sure that no one of course except Sharon in Midwood would know my birthday.... However sadly I did tell several people the other day because I was complaining I had to go to school today..... :( Other than that, no one knew so I was very happy! I didn't want everyone to say it because it causes too much fuss.........

Sadly today, I didn't get to celebrate. My mom told me since it's on a school day, we're not going to celebrate it this year, instead we're going to celebrate my Chinese birthday, so YAH!!!!!!! :D I get red envelopes!! :D

ONE GREAT NEWS IS THAT: Sharon got me a very great gift!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!! I <3 it!!!! :D I couldn't believe that she got it for me! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD OMG!!!!! :D

Here's a photo of it:

Anyway, it's like 4 pads of paper with B1A4 pictures on them!!!! OMG!!!!!! I'm so happy to receive it!!

It's the most thoughtful present for me, because as you know, Chinese family (at least mine are) don't really go out to buy presents instead they give you like $50 and say "here's some money, go buy your own present! Happy birthday!" So my family, including me, is very lazy and especially don't like to go gift buying......... :D

OMG! I just wanted to share this happiness with you!!!!!!!!!! :D

Regret/Philosophies

At the end of the drama "Shining Inheritance/Brilliant Legacy" [A Korean Drama] SungMee says a really astronomically good line! Her quote is perfect! 

I should really say the quote and its: "Regret? Regret is for those who had a choice." OMG!!!!! It's so wise, and yet so sad......... "Regret is for those who had a choice." WOW! It's so deep..............

I personally find that quote true, because you regret your actions when you had a better one to choose from. You really cannot regret something you did if you had no other choice, because what's there to regret then? 

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Part Two:

Philosophies........................

I am a person who likes definite things, I do not like anything which is debatable. Two plus two is always four, there is no other answer, ever! Yet some things are un-answerable, such as the question which I previously wrote "What is love?" Although you may answer that question, there isn't a definite answer provided by factual evidence, where everyone will agree.......

Ever since my English teacher Ms. Hoque (pronounced hawk, like the bird hawk) brought up the topic of philosophies it made me think about it............ Here are several philosophical questions that I have:

1) How to live life to the fullest and without regret?

2) What is love?

3) What is a person's destiny?

4) What is family?

and lastly

5) Why were we born?

I hate those questions because there aren't any scientific answers for those questions? For example, although blood relations is essentially what a family is, deeply it is not...... It's suppose to be a group of people tied to together through love and hardship............ Yet other people will disagree and say something else........................ See? This is why philosophical questions are annoying.............. If there is a definite answer than it's not a philosophical question right?

One answer for question one, is developed throughout history. For example, Buddhism is a way of life so it is classified as a philosophy, yet today it is a religion because there are eternal "forces" and other "factors"......... :D Also I think vegetarianism is a philosophy because it too is a way of life.......... :D

Whatever, from this point on I hate when people ask philosophical questions.......... :D

~~GYM CLASS~~ = HELL>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

I feel like my gym teacher enjoys to see children suffering, because everyday in gym everyone in my class suffers from muscle aches........................ ARGHHH!!!!!

Right now, even after two days of rest, my arms and my abdomen still hurts.................... I feel like Mr. Padula [my gym teacher] hates me....... Everything he chooses to do, is what I hate to do............... He makes us do push ups, curl ups, sit ups, squats and others stuff......... Yet he doesn't make us run......... Running is the only exercise I like, that's why I can play tennis and other running sports that require no strength!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Aigoo [that's Korean!!!!!!!!!]!!!!! I really hate Padula!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This was suppose to be an extremely long venting post about my horrible life but whatever!!!! I gotta eat/cook something to eat because I'm freaking hungry!!!!! Bye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


좋은 하루 되세요!!!

Curiosity..........................

This post is all due to Sharon's blog post about her dreams, and Vanessa's comment on that post................. :D

So my friend Sharon wrote a post of two of her dreams, one very sweet and so lovey dovey it makes you want to barf, and the other one a horrid, gruesome, gory, and sad one that makes you sick to your stomach. Anyway, the sweet is about her and her "crush" going out on a date on a bridge, and how that guy hugged her and told her to close her eyes. Then the guy put a couple necklace on her, and blah blah blah. The gory one was about it raining all kinds of animals from the sky, where when the animal reached the group blood spilled everyone and she described it as a "slaughter house." Then the dream changed scene to her being in a prisoner room, handcuffed, and waiting for her parents to pay her ransom. To show her her fate if her parents didn't pay, the people that kidnapped her, killed a girl in front of her............. She then described how she kept telling herself to wake up but she didn't, but luckily her father woke her up............ :D [P.S. Sharon and Vanessa, this entire paragraph was from my memory, I didn't once look back at her post....... :D  I have a great memory!!!!! :D Also, I only read her post once!!!!!! :D I'm like sooooooo goood at this!!!!! :D]

Anyway, at the comment section Vanessa wrote something about thinking she knows whom the guy in the dream was....... She referred to the guy as "you know who" which totally reminds me of Voldemort in Harry Potter, anyway back to the point, I really want to know whom the guy Sharon was crushing on!!!!!!!!! UGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!! I'm so curious, and I'm dying of curiosity, hence the title post being "Curiosity" duuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh................................... :D

Com'on Vanessa tell me!!!!!!!!!! I wanna know!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!! PWEASE!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!! COM'ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

Anyway, please comment below a name, or 5 hints that would let me know whom "you know who" is!!!!!! Thank you for your cooperation!!!!!!!!!! :D

P.S. Isn't it so annoying when you want to know something but another person wouldn't say it????? Don't you just hate people that say "never mind" when you wanted to tell you something, and now is making you want to know it??????? UUGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! Annoying people those are.............. :D 

~~MY BIRTHDAY THIS YEAR~~ :'(

First of all, let me start of immaturely............ NO FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WWWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHO DO I HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL ON MY BIRTHDAY!!?????????? NO FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! N-O F-A-I-R!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, I'm done with the stupid tantrum. :D If you don't know, from I was a baby, I never had to go to school on my birthday. Even if it wasn't on a vacation, I always didn't go to school. But this year my birthday is on a school day and my mother said I cannot skip school for something as silly as my birthday. She said we'll just have an earlier birthday party for me.............. 

Umm excuse me, but, who celebrates their birthday early? It's suppose to be celebrated on that day you were born............. Hence the term birth-day.......... Duhhhh............... 

I do not understand why I have to go to school........ You will keep hearing me complain about this..................... :D

Have a great day!!!!!!!!

~~HOPE~~

I'm wondering how grim the world would be without hope........

Hope is all that we wish could/would happen. Everything we do, we hope that it would be correct, and not cause us any harmful consequences............. Yet at times, hope is lost, and at that darkest moment is where in dramas the guy or girl comes and brings hope back into the character's world..................... I know that's a horrible comparison, but I cannot think of anything better............. :D

Hope is all that we can wish for, yet hope is an intangible object............. We cannot see, touch, hear, smell, or feel hope......... Yet it exists....... Yesterday in class my English Teacher as us "What is Love?" Till right now, I cannot answer that question....................... [P.S. If any of you viewers could answer it, please leave it below because I really want to know!]

Hope is hope....... LOL!!

This is such a weird post but that was what was on my mind/heart.......... Whatever............................. :D

Have a great day everyone!!!!!!!! :D

My Valentines Day!!!!! :D

Today was almost a perfect day for me!!!!!!! I cannot believe it but it was extremely close to perfect........................ :D Other than the few "dark" moments, it's was extremely bright, fluffy, and beautiful!!!!! :D [I'm using such weird descriptions, but it's what's on my mind, so it's what I'm writing! :D]

This morning I overslept like 20 minutes, but luckily now I skip breakfast, so it didn't really matter! :D I got to school on time with like 10 minutes to spare! :D The only sad part was that I had to wait for the bus for like 20 minutes at the stop.................... The other sad part was that I only had on one hoddie, with no t-shirt underneath, soooooo that was just perfect! But luckily there wasn't wind this morning....................... :D

At school the first thing I did was to go see my friends as usual in the lunch room! There I just talked and had semi-fun with them........ :D Anyway, in gym today I'm so proud of myself! I did the pacer yesterday and I ran 45 laps and I'm extremely proud of myself! Today we did the curl-ups and I did 50 so that was another success!!! :D Sadly to right now my thighs still hurt, so ??????????????????? Tomorrow we're doing the push ups and I really don't have much upper body strength so fail...............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

After gym at my living environment class was a back to pre-school day! We started coloring RNA and DNA and it was so stupid.... But at least I had 1 friend in that class called Richard. The only annoying part is that he enjoys quiet, so it's kinda awkward trying to talk to him and all he does is nodding back......................

All the other classes were good except at English where I only got a 21/30 on my vocabulary test........... I wanna cry!!!!!! :'(

Tomorrow, we're getting another one and let's hope I actually do better....................... :D

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This was suppose to be a Valentine's post so why am I talking about my day????????

Anyway, as you all know, or should know, my valentine for the day was my teddy bear! Sadly I couldn't bring her [yep my teddy is a her, because the tag it came with named it Beary, and I thought it was feminine, so it's a female] so instead I brought my mouse toy...... People at school stared at me like I was crazy calling a mouse my valentine, but whatever! It's my valentine not yours!!!! :P There were so many haters, because they were jealous because they didn't think of it!!!! :D

I really hope that in the future I wouldn't have an inanimate valentine............. :D

Like all you people wonder, I wondered how my "partner" would be........... I found out that stuff I want is so detailed and imperfect............ Odd right? I usually like stuff perfect, but for my "other part" I want an imperfect person because being perfect is annoying.............. :D To be honest, I try to be perfect at times, and it's annoying both trying to be perfect, and to the people around me............ So now I'm just a dorky, funny, outgoing person........... [Weird right Vanessa, Sharon? Last year I was more shy, and isolated person]....................................... Anyway, I just hope to find "her" in the mere future.............................. :D

I'm wondering how you viewers spent your Valentine's Day!!!! I've been getting viewers all over the world, yet only my best friends Vanessa, and Sharon would comment!!!! OMG!!!! You can be anonomous to comment, so com'on stop being so afraid!!!!!!! I like to share stuff with you viewers, but why can't you reply back?????? COM'ON if you can't, please at least comment on this one post!!!!!!! :D PWEASE!!!!!!!! PWEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D [Yep, it's baby talk time]................ :D

Let's all hope next Valentine's Day will just be as perfect as this one!!!!!!!!!!! :D

MY VALENTINE!!!!!!!!!!

This year is the first year that I got a VALENTINE!!!!! YAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, my valentine is my............................................ Stuffed Teddy Bear!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

HEHEHE!!! I know the title is deceiving but it's true! Tomorrow I was originally going to bring my teddy bear to school, but an epiphany arrived to me......... Sadly, it was too large to carry the entire day, and it's too large to fit into any of my bags....... LOL! :D So instead, my valentine is going to be my small mouse stuffed animal Mia Mousey! :D

LOL! I just described to you my first valentine, and I'm sure several years from now, I would laugh at this......... :D This is one of the few reasons I wrote this post! :D

But luckily, several of my guy friends [awkwardly] asked me to be their valentine [which I laughed at sooooooooooo muchhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D].............. LOL! Anyway, I declined because I said "No way! My teddy's my valentine!!!!!!" I guess now it's "My mousey's my valentine!!!" 

I just had to share with you viewers my odd valentine for tomorrow!!!!!!!! :D

Let's all hope that we would have a great Valentine's Day!!!!!! For all you viewers with your "mate" [hehe] let's hope that you will continue having the same "mate" for the Valentine's Day in the decades to come! For all you viewers without your "mate" let's hope we'll meet one soon!!!!!!!!!!!

P.S. Valentine's Day's origin was dated back to the Romans. Emperor Claudius II executed two men, both named Valentine, on February 14th, and it was named Valentine's Day to honor them by the Christian church. However, through history, and Shakespeare, it became a day of romance, and kissy-faces!!!!! :D

Let's hope you all enjoyed this post!!!!! :D Have a wonderous Valentine's Day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

P.S. 2 Tomorrow is one of the best days for Pisces!!!!!! And I'm a Pisces, obviously, and tomorrow is a day of excitment and challenges!!!!! OOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! That just sounds so lovey-dovey!!!!!!!!!!!!! Plus tomorrow we're suppose to feel daring, and that just smells like love!!!!! :D OMG!!!!! I'm so excited, because this is the first year, when someone asked me to be their valentine, although it's a guy......... But at least he's a close friend..... I kinda regret not saying "yes" because I have to spend it with my cute mouse!!! Whatever, we'll see tomorrow!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!

~~Asian Society~~!! :D

Today was the Asian Society Annual New Year's Banquet, and I actually had a lot of fun............ The only sad part was that today none of my guy friends attended, so I had to hang out with girls................ :'( Whatever.............. 

Anyway, today I made my favorite raman noodles with chicken!!!! I just love ramen noodles because I love them!!!!!! :D

Here's the photo of the dish I made:

I personally loved it, and I hope my friends and other people also like it!!! :D YAH!!!!!! Plus, I got out of 9th and 10th period, and I'm so happy for that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! D

100th Pageviews!!!!! Yah!!!!!!!

By now, all you viewers should know that I'm extremely immature and mature at times....... LOL! :D <-- That makes zero sense to me........ :D

Anyway, obviously that 100 pageviews is not for this blog, as I'm close to my 700th by now! [Please continue to support me!!!] But instead that 100 pageview is for my K-Pop blog!!!!!!!!! :D Within about several months I have gotten 115 pageviews, and I'm extremely excited!!!!!!!! :D I cannot believe that people actually visit that blog because it's filled with stuff that I personally love............. Anyway I just wanted to share this momentous milestone for my other blog.......... :D

P.S. Please continue your support of this blog, as I love to tell tales to you viewers! :D

Oh yeah, if you wanna check my blog out here's the link: http://myworldofk-pop.blogspot.com/

Thanks for your support!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG! I'm like jumping up and down my chair right now!!!!!!

~~My Thoughts of the Entire Week~~

First of all, my title is totally plagiarizing what Vanessa usually does, so LOL! :D

Second, I haven't really blogged at all this week because of two reasons:

 1) I was really busy with watching Korean Dramas! LOL! :D 

2) I kept procrastinating with my homework so I didn't even have time to sleep! 

As you all know, I'm a fan of Korean stuff, Korean Pop music, Korean Dramas, and Korean movies! :D This week as of today, I was successful from last Friday, to now, on finishing three different dramas!!!!!! [I feel so accomplished because they were quite long] I finished watching School 2013, Flower Boy Ramen Shop, and Boys Over Flowers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I also have some stuff to tell my best friends Vanessa and Sharon! :D

To Vanessa: I don't get why your obsessed with Lee Min Ho???????? He was in the movie Boys Over Flowers and I think he looks really weird, especially with curly hair......... Plus, his acting skills aren't that great either.... All his angry scenes, and crying scenes were so "pushed out".... It's not really natural.........

To Sharon: Do you watch Korean Dramas too? 

Okay, as I've told you viewers, this entire week I've been procrastinating like crazy!!!!! OMG! When I look back, I feel really bad because for some homeworks I could've done much better! UGHHH! Also, this entire week I've been deprived of sleep, and I feel like an abomination of sleep................ :'( This week, I've been so close to sleeping in some of my classes and I feel so bad for that..............

On a happier note for school I've been meeting new friends, because for the Spring schedule change thing, I officially had no friends in any of my classes! Also, my most hated teacher, Mrs. Francois, was switched out and I have Mr. Klotokin and Ms. Fusco for science and there so nice! YAH ME!!! [Remember when we did that together, it was either with Sharon or Vanessa.......]

Also, I feel so great because it's Chinese New Year tomorrow! If you Chinese, that we all have a great year lying ahead of us!!!!! P.S. This is the year of the snake, so all tigers aren't going to have the bestest of years because it's "fan tai soi" or something like that........ I don't know it in English! About next week, I will ahve a post name "Chinese New Year Fun!!!!!!!!!!"

WOW [HEHE! That's the name of one of my favorite songs from BtoB! :D] this post is so messy and tons of information...... LOL! Who cares, I'm a messy person anyway!

P.S. Yesterday was "lein 28" so I had to clean my room...... Now my back still aches from that....... CRY!!!!!! :'( I had to vaccum, which I do very often, but I moved all my furniture and bed and everything to get the last bit of dust down there, and had to move it back... It's was such a pain in my butt................ :'(

P.S. 2: Sharon and Vanessa how are you gonna spend the Chinese New Year? Let's hope that we all have a great year ahead of us!!!!!!!!!! Yah!!!!!

P.S. 3: It's Chinese New Year Eve!!!! Yah I get red envelopes starting this night! YIPPEE!!!!!

P.S. 4: I almost got yelled at by my mother because I saw her doing red envelopes, and there was a huge pile of new money/bills!! OMG! My eyes were like "YIPEE! NEW MONEY!" So I ran into my room, and got all my money, and I went outside and exchanged all my old bills for her newer ones! LOL! :D I feel so stupid but I love new money! They don't smell, they're cleaner, they're less ugly, they're not ripped, and tons of other OCD stuff!!!!!!

P.S. 5: Why do I have so much P.S.'s???????? 

P.S. 6: I hated the ending for Boys Over Flowers, ugghhh! Why did JanDi end up with JunPyo instead of JiHoo??????? OMG! I'm so mad right now!!!

P.S. 7: I'm actually gonna stop writing now, so BYE! Have a great day everyone!

~~Leaving....................... TT~~~

Instead of me leaving, it's my hamster that left the world................ :'( 

After about 1 1/2 years with my sister's hamster, Oatmeal I have grown quite attached to her....... Just like several hours ago she has left this world................ Let's all pray that she would left in peace................................