Memories

     Memories are something that you hold onto in your brains forever. You might not remember, but however, when you thinks of this moment, you will remember a familiar vague feelings, and that's the memory. I am scared of forgetting things, so here are some memories to remember some of the best time of the year:

 

A Letter

     Today is the last day of school, and it's over. There is so much memories to cherish in my heart, but however, I'm scared of forgetting some. Yesterday I was hoping for school to be over, but however, today, I wish it was not. Just the thought of leaving some of my best friends, and teachers are so sad. The teacher that I miss the most would be Ms. Rega, she was the best teacher I had since my Pre-K year. There were so many moments this year where I cannot forget, so here I am writing everything down that I remember so I can look back at this point in my life.

    1. Laughing at the alphabet because "qrs" goes together.
    2. Having to yell at Anderson, because he calls me Vic-Ka-Tor.
    3. Taking the regents.
    4. The time that I spent in Ms. Rega's room during lunch.
    5. Graduation.
    6. Stuff that I cannot ever forget.

     Its going to take one hundred pages for me to list out all the great moments this year, and now it's over, I'm actually really sad. One friend, wrote me a letter on telling me to never forget, here I am, and now I will tell her, that I will never FORGET YOU!!! When I read that letter, it made me feel really sad, but yet happy. I told me that these three years staying in Brooklyn Studio was truly worth it. Friends are always friends no matter where they are, friendship does not come out of the mouth, instead from ones heart. I learnt that lesson from the exact person who wrote me the letter. I was originally mad at the hummingbird, but however,   I am not anymore, she taught me that friends will always be friends and that will never change. Many more people in New York are being sad on leaving their friends due to school being over. However one person I do not agree upon on this subject is Amal. He is actually happy that he is leaving this school, and when I said good bye to some of my friends on the street, he called me stupid. He said I will talk to them on facebook, but however, facebook is not as good as spending time with them face to face. No matter what he tells me, I still believe that Brooklyn Studio is a great school. I cannot believe that he calls Brooklyn Studio hell, instead I believe that Brooklyn Studio is a great small school, filled with warmth, and friends everywhere corner. It might not be as majestic as Mark Twain, but however, it is still a great school.

     I learned a lot this year. Especially where every teacher believed in me, especially my Spanish teacher, Senora Borrero. She taught me that no matter what happens, I should always believe in myself, because I could accomplish great things due to my intelligence. I learned to build self confidence and to protect myself. I am no longer afraid to speak my mind, due to the exact person who wrote me the letter. She was not afraid to doing anythings, including speaking her mind. Although sometimes, she might be really loud and emotional, she was a great friend. This whole post, is dedicated to all my friends, and especially the "letter person."

This picture dipicates that no matter where you are on Earth, friends will always be friends in the heart:

Hatred

     Hate is a strong word, in which I use almost everyday, but however I do not mean it. Usually I should use the word dislike, but however, if I say "I dislike you!" it doesn't sound as good as "I hate you!" Therefore, many people misuse the word, and do not notice the remarks of it. Whenever someone says the word hate to me, I cannot decipher whether it really means hate, or dislike. It is really hurtful whenever some says it to me, and whenever someone does say it to me, I feel as if that person wants me to die, just because I am not perfect for that person. Everyone says that I talk too much, and I know I do, but no one is perfect. Sometimes my friend says that they hate me, because I talk to much. I cannot change myself just to make that person happy, so I just make myself happy.

Family

     You family is composed of whoever are your relatives. No matter who they are, you cannot change it, however much you wish that you could, you could never. Sometimes you will get into fights, but you cannot ever stay mad at them for too long. They will always be there for you, even if you think that they wouldn't. No matter how friendly, or unhappily your family lives through, you're always family, and you could rely on them. Sometimes you think that your mom or dad is annoying, but soon when they aren't there annoying you anymore, you will feel lonely and sad. You would sometimes pay anything to have a special family member back such as your mom. Sometimes you feel as if you hate your family, but deep down if you look hard enough, you could understand why they're being a nuisance towards you.

Insecurity

     Insecurity is a really tormenting fear to have. You do not feel safe or protected, and that feeling can cause many other disorders. I have insecurity because I do not know where I stand in the world, I feel as if I'm on the bottom and that feeling is not a pleasant one to have. Not only does insecurity tie in with how you feel where you are in the world, but also your safety. After my father told me the story of robbers and rapist that commit their crimes, I feel as if anytime I would be jumped upon. I wish that I do not have this feeling but however, I cannot change it. There is always something that could happen, and it might be someone such as a hummingbird that could hurt you.

Disappointment

     Disappointment is in every person's life. Although, no one wants to have disappointment in their life, we cannot control it, and instead we have to embrace it. The wise advice that I am talking about right now is true, but however I can not help myself but be in a depression. Expectance is one of the greatest cause of disappointment. Everyone has their own expectance but however no one could have no expectance. Somehow I have great expectance, but however, I can't help myself and have them. I wish that I didn't but I can't change myself. I feel so sad right now, and I feel like I am trapped in my own world of disappointment.

The famous picture Migrant Mother: (How I Feel Right Now)

Dinner

     Dinner is a time where a family spends time together, around a table filled with food, converse, and have fun. Families share how their day went by, happy, sad, annoyance, fast, slow, and others. This family bonding time happens in about every family that you could find, but however it cannot be found in mine. My dinners are usually spent with me in my room, surfing the internet watching some stupid TV show on Netflix. I thought that at least today, Father's Day would be spent around the big wooden table with my family. However, yet again like any other day it was not. There was this whole row between my mom and day a couple days ago, and my mom refused to celebrate Father's Day with my father. I spent my Father's Day in my room watching Suite Life on Deck, my sister in her room watching Phineas and Ferb, my mom in the kitchen, and my father in the living room. I just wish that they would get over the fight. I sometimes feel as though that thy do not love me, but however deep down I know they do, but however they usually don't show it because my mom and dad aren't people who show their love.

Cupcakes

     Cupcakes are miniature cakes that are baked inside small cups. They contain smaller portion sizes that a large 10 inch cake. I love to cook cupcakes, and I am cooking them later. I like to make them, but I do not want to eat them all. So tomorrow I'm going to bring them to school and share them with my friends. However, I do not want to share it with the hummingbird. But I have to, let see how tomorrow rolls!!!

Father's Day

     Today is Father's Day and it is a day that celebrates that hard work that a father had experienced in order to raise his children. Every family usually would celebrate by giving their fathers gifts and a dinner. Every family's celebration tradition is different due to financial, and how much they love their father. However, it is traditional for the children to show their gratitude to their father for the raising of them. Father's Day is a day for commemoration to their father's.
     However for me every Father's and Mother's Day somehow my parents would always get in a fight over stupid worthless stuff. I would just wish that on one of these special occasions that my parents wouldn't get into a fight with each other. Today my mom said that she wouldn't celebrate Father's Day. She wouldn't cook, clean, or do anything for him. The soup that she made yesterday, she said my father isn't allowed to even touch it. Even though my family isn't having a happy Father's Day, I wish to any viewer, Happy Father's Day!!!

Regrets

      Every night the minutes between me falling asleep and me lying on my bed, I have a habit of going over everything that I accomplished that day. However, every night I have feelings of regrets. I am sure that everyone wishes that they could go back in time, and fix something that they did wrong. For example, I really wish that I could go back in time, and fix my English class today, I should of just shut up. Also, there were many great opportunities throughout the day for accomplishments, but however I just gave up on them, and usually I regret giving up. I feel as though I should have the courage to take on the opportunity and hope it would all work out (that would never happen because, I'm fearful of the consequences).
     Regret is something that everyone has, whether it is small such as sticking your tongue out at someone, or some large such as causing a genocide. Regret is something that attacks the human mind as much as a seizure. Regrets can lead to many consequences such as suffering a depression, and attempts of suicides. I feel as though that even in times of mistakes, if you persevere everything would work out for you. 

Ms. Rega

     If you read my last post, you'll probably guess that in this post, I'll also criticize Ms. Rega and her lousy teaching methods. If you did, you're wrong because Ms. Rega taught us well and prepared us perfectly for the Earth Science Regents. Although there were only 1 question that we haven't learn, she did a better job teaching than Mr. Musser. She was also correct tell us to not freak out and that the test was fairly simple. However before the Algebra Regents, to me Mr. Musser's pep talk meant nothing, and he should just go back to school and take speech lessons again. One more test to go before I'm done with tests this year.

Mr. Musser

     Teachers are the people who teaches us our needed knowledge. They teach us math, English, science, social studies, and foreign language. However, not all teachers are great at their jobs. For instance, my math teacher, Mr. Musser, is a dim wit who doesn't teach you everything that you need to know for the regents. Several topics on the Algebra I regents, I never even saw that specific topic. Lets hope that tomorrow on my Earth Science Regents there isn't anything I never saw.

Regents

      Regents. Regents are the tests who decide whether or not we pass a class, pass or fail the subject, continue to the next subject or retake next winter, or even retake during the summer. Although I do not agree with the Department of Education upon deciding whether we comprehend the subject through a test, everyone in New York is mandated into taking it. Me, along with thousands of other students in New York in the following weeks are taking it. It brings fear, nausea, and everyone's test-a-phobia into the spotlight, and right before the test, the butterflies into our stomach. Why does the DOE require us to take it? I do not have the answer, and so doesn't everyone except the DOE. Some people are great test takers, while others, like me aren't. Everyone is a smart students, but however, not everyone is a great test taker. It should depend on our class work that promotes us to the next grade or subject, not a stupid test that the DOE spends millions upon to make students suffer. I along with my class is forced to take the Algebra I regents tomorrow and I am not happy about it, but who cares about what I though? I cannot make any difference by writing a single blog post. To everyone who is taking at least one regents exam: HAVE FUN!!!

Yet Another Penguin in the Sea

     Today was yet another boring day of my boring life. There wasn't much happening today, and I am kinda glad because I do not want to work at school anymore. After working and trying the whole year, I just wanna relax and enjoy the rest of the year. However sadly in Social Studies, our teacher Mr. Soffer expects us to work on the project, but however I do not want to and everyone in my group expects me to do all the work and I do not at all want to. Tommorow is my Algebra Regents and I am not at all scared. I am quite sure that I will pass and not have to take Algebra again next year in high school. This is the typical day that I always have.

I am Not OLD!!!!!!!!!

     My day started out horribly due to my dumbass baby cousin decided to call me this morning and say some really mean things to me. It goes like this:                                                                                                                  
Cuz: "Hey, how is it going?
Me: "Fine, why are you asking? You never seem to be this caring towards me?" (He is usually really stuck up and snobby, and he is only 6 years old!!!)
Cuz: "My mom said that I should care more about the elders, and your 14, so your old"
Me: "I AM NOT AT ALL EVEN CLOSE TO BEING OLD!!! I AM ONLY 14 YEARS OLD!!! HOW AM I FREAKING OLD?!!!"
Cuz: "When are you retiring? Next year?"

     Anyway, that truly made my day better. Starting the day on a sour note of being told that I am old and I need to retire soon. When I went to school, I didn't think my sadness can go any worst, and sadness hits me in the face like a stone brick wall. Some of the my friends decided to tell me that I have gray hair, and when I asked someone if I look that old she decided to tell me "Well, if you are a little wrinkle here and there, you do look 70." 

      For future references to anyone, including me again, DO NOT ASK ANYONE IF YOU LOOK OLD, YOU WILL BE GIVEN THE WRONG ANSWER AND MAKE YOU REALLY SAD!!!

My First Entry

      I wasn't going to create my blog today, but however somebody decided to say I should do it now and I did. From now on I'm going to share to you about stupid unexpected stuff that happened to me throughout the day. Some of the stories I have tweaked a little, so do not believe all of it, just understand the big idea and laugh. Have Fun reading!!!