My Day

     Okay, today was a great day although I woke up so early, due to some idiot called my neighbor. By law I think it's illegal to start construction work until 10 AM or something, but since I'm not sure I won't say anything. I truly want to call 311 and complain so something would be done but since I'm not sure so I won't. After waking up and writing my post called "Vaclav and Lena" and later "Tonight" I went out with my mother and sister. It was actually fun to go out but it was really hot and humid today. My mother refused to go out yesterday when it was cool and fresh yesterday, so I was stuck with hot and humid.
     The whole point of today's trip was for me to cut my hair, and to buy some school supplies. I got about everything I needed except folders!!! The ones that I usually use from Stapes, are those poly, flex, see through ones, that don't have the three rings in the middle, but they don't have it. So I went to Rite Aid, and I didn't see anything I wanted. However I did get some cheap lead from Rite Aid so that trip wasn't a total waste.
     I believe that my haircut is okay, but I liked my last one better. Due to the hair stylist that I usually visit, not being there, I just used some other person, because I didn't want to go again. I somewhat regret that now but whatever, it'll grow back. I went to the hair salon by myself, because my mother was hungry and didn't want to wait at the salon. So she went to a bakery, with a green thingy on top as the name. It was on 86th street, so I just went there myself, got my haircut, and went back to the bakery to find her. However something very embarassing happened on my way there. I kinda tripped on the street, and fell on my butt. Now, when I'm sitting on a chair typing this, I think my butt still kinda hurts but it might just be me since I'm a hypochondriac. 
     I had a post called "Tonight" and it's topic was the last blue moon tonight until 2015. I'm sitting here and I don't think that moon is really blue, but it's really bright and shiny!!! Also, when I arrived home I recieved a letter from Midwood! It have me my homeroom number and it's: 384!!! What's your Sharon? Tell me!!!

  Here's a photo of my okay haircut:



Another day gone, sigh!

Tonight!!!

     Tonight is the last blue moon until 2015. I just want to tell everyone to take at least a minute and appreciate the moon which has been in orbit around Earth since the beginning of mankind. Tonight is the last chance you have to see the rare blue moon until 3 months later! So just spend at least a minute staring at it. I know I would!!! Would you?

Vaclav and Lena...

     Vaclav and Lena is actually a great book, but just not the type of book for me. It's talks of the relationship between Vaclav and Lena and everything that they've been through. Although I didn't actually enjoy reading the book, it is actually written fantastically. I am no fan of romantic books or movies, because they just don't gie me excitment. Although I didn't enjoy the book, it did reveal sad facts of life to me, and now I'm spending the day thinking about it.
     One plot of the book is focused on Lena's life of sadness and hardship. The only help that she recieved since her birth was the arrival of Vaclav, the love of her life. The sadness this book revealed to me, was the horrid of living in Russia during the 1980's through 1990's becayse due to the goverment collapsing and everything happening at once. There were no jobs and people were all becoming lazy people, with no money, with no job, with nothing except a bit of money which was spent on liqor to make them drunk so they can forget everything.

***Spoiler Alert to Anyone who didn't read this book!!!***

     Lena's mother was a very responsible, and intelligent person, who cared for Lena's aunt when she was young. They were ten years apart, but between them, their mother had a boy but he died soon afterwards. Lena's grandmother would trade the two girls for having the boy back. The grandfather of Lena was a drug dealer, and her grandmother was always drunk and disliked Lena since her birth. Soon Lena's mother wanted money to buy clothes and food, because her family gave her and Lena's aunt nothing. No clothes, no food, no anything they needed. So she quit school, and hung out with the "girls". The girls were people on the street who were prostitudes, and soon instead of being a prostitude for clothing, food, money, she did it for drugs. Also soon Lena's mother gave sex to her father for drugs, due to him being a drug dealer. However soon everything went spiraling down even faster. Lena's mother was pregnant, and soon she and her father was busted for killing a wealthy person's daughter and they were sentenced to prision. However, Lena's mother was innocent but even though if she was innocent, with all other crimes she commitied she would've been executed anyway. In prision she gave birth to Lena and was soon exectued.   
     Since her birth the only person that actually cared for her was her aunt beacuse her mother died soon after giving birth to her in prison. Lena's mother wanted to forget Lena's mother, so she didn't care for Lena at all. Lena's aunt was soon sold to America with Lena along, and Lena's aunt was forced to become a stripper, to pay for all the fake passport, certificates and everything made for her, and Lena. However soon, the evil people who bought Lena and her aunt, was enraveled in debt, because the evil person, opened credit cards and everything in her name, because her credit was slate clean. The evil person kept Lena's aunt in the stripper industry in a club, because if she refused to be a stripper she cannot pay all her debt that the evil person cashed on her credit cards and loans. Each month I guess the evil person paid the debt owed, and the amount of money must be phenominal. Also, Lena's aunt couldn't report this to the police, because everything she had, the green card, passport, Lena's birth certificate, were all fake, so they would be sent to prision. So in other word's Lena's aunt was slave towards the evil person and any customers the evil person found for her. Anyway, soon the person became Lena's aunt's boyfriend.
     Soon another drunk customer of Lena's aunt came to her house for her, but she wasn't there. But Lena was home alone, so he forced her to have sex with him. Rasia, Vaclav's mother went to check on her, found this out, and quickly sneaked out of the house, and went to the police immediately. Rasia acted like the mother of Lena. Lena's aunt was asked who was the person that raped Lena and instead of saying it was the drunk customer, she blamed her boyfriend, because if convicted she and Lena would be finally free. It actually happened, and soon instead of being forced to be in the stripping industry, was was doing it for the money, because she needed money for learning to be a nurse.
     Soon, Lena was taken into Child Care and was given a foster parent. Lena thought that her aunt gave her no love and care, but instead in reality, her aunt didn't want her to know about anything of the tragic life she's living. She didn't want Lena to know that she was forced into the sex industry or anthing, and isntead she wanted to protect her from everything that she was suffering. In fact, her aunt loved her dearly, but didn't want to ruin her life.

*** Spoiler Alert Completed!!! ***

     This book revealed many things that I didn't know, and now I'm thinking about it again and again. I would reccomend this book to anyone, because it was written beautifully. Anyway, have a great day! Also, I wouldn't of read this book if it wasn't because this was the book that I was forced to read for Midwood.

P.S. Only 5 Days Left of Summer!!!
P.S. 2: I'm waking up so early these days...

My Hair

     Well tomorrow I have to get a haircut, so I'm just taking weird photos of my hair today to keep as a memory. I see that I do have some period of time with weird hair so here they are:

 

 Before Showering:

 

 

After Showering:

 

 

 

After a 10 Second Fix:

 

 

 

I don't wanna cut my hair but I have too...



New Template

     I used my last template for about I guess like two months and I found it boring. So I surfed the internet for like half an hour and finally found this template. I like the part with the dog with headphones and sitting on the sofa. I like everything about this new template except that there is a girl sitting next to the dog. Only if it was a boy, I had another template I loved, and I will upload it tommorow. I will probably create a poll and see if anyone would actually participate in it. I spent like one and a half hours editing the template and put everything in order.

Write your comments on my new template. I'll probably change the template to the other one I loved like in two days, and create the poll to decide which one I would use... Please participate in the poll since I am a very indecisive person...

Irritating Crickets!!!

     I don't know where the heck are the crickets but they are somewhere in the garden, and I hate them. I would so want to get bug spray and spray them, but sometimes I actually like listening to them. I wouldn't hate the so much if they don't chirp in the morning and wake me up like they did right now... At night I actally like listening to their songs, and looking at the moon, because it's so serene and natural. It feels like I'm living inside a luxurious house in the Suburbs instead of the big urban city that I actually do. Since, it's so early in the morning I'm really tired, and don't/can't think and write as much as I usually do. So this post is actually one of my shortest.

P.S. There is Only 6 Days of Summer Left!!!

New Bug Zapper!!!

     Yah! My new bug zapper just arrived yesterday, and it's finally fully charged... I hate mosquitos, and now since it's close to fall, the mosiquitos are being more abundant and annoying. They are now like sucking more blood so they have the energy to lay eggs for next spring to be hatched. So they are being more agressive than normal, and they just live for 5 days, and then they would die. I hate summer sometimes because there are so much mosquitos.
     Yesterday I recieved the electric bug zapper that I ordered online, and I hope that it actually works. I charged it for 15 hours so now it's fully powered, and now unless I see a stupid mosquito it's going to be plugged in on the electric socket. There if any mosquitos fly by, it would be a fried mosquito. And if I see any, I would close my door, and chase it around my room with the bug zapper in my room, instead of holding a mop running around the house and into the bathroom hurting myself like Sharon did.

P.S. 7 Day Not Counting Today Left of Summer. WAH!!! CRY!!!

The News Article About Foreign Doctors

     America is like a magnet for foreign doctors, due to the vast technoligcal advancments, high salaries, and more to work with than other countries. Each year, many doctors from foreign countires flock to the U.S. to find jobs. Many countries are in need of doctors, but all doctors love to work in the U.S. Why don't they go to places that are actual in real need of full fledged doctors? A vast majority of the countries on the world need better medical supplies, doctors, surgeons, hospitals, and other mediciation. Yet, as all people on the world wants money, they go to places where they can get more. Since the U.S. spends so much money each year on health care, it's like the U.S. is a gold mine for doctors. Yet some doctors such as the one in the linked page does actually want to return to their country to help the needy people. I think of that person as a hero, even though he went to the U.S. for a better life. Even though he did desert his country, he still wants to return, and just the thought of it, is better than some, who just came to the U.S. and will never even think of returning, even though his/her country needs them.

Here's the link to the post: http://www.nytimes.com/2012/03/11/magazine/america-is-stealing-foreign-doctors.html?_r=1&pagewanted=all

Waking Up Early!!!

     I am not a person that wakes up early, instead I like to sleep in late like till 12. The only days this summer that I actually woke up early was yesterday. We had to get to Chinatown earlier so I had to wake up earlier. Usually other than having appointments or having to go somewhere the really other time that I wake up early is if somebody wakes me up. For example, right below my room is the kitchen, and if my parents talk too loud I would hear them and be waken up. I'm kinda both a light sleep and a deep sleeper. Sometimes even if a window breaks I won't wake up, but sometimes a conversation below or in nearby rooms would wake me up.
     This morning is one of the mornings that I wake up early. Some people downstairs call my mother and father decided to have a fight. Can't they at least wait until I wake up to fight, because I slept at like 3 yesterday. I guess that my mother was cooking breakfast and my father wanted to help. So instead of helping he usually makes a mess and annoys my mother because probably she's flipping something and she can't clean the place. Whatever, I just am not an early person, and if I wake up early, I'm usually cranky and stiff throughout the whole day. Good day to all you viewers out there!

P.S. 9 Day Left of Summer Vacation!!! SADDDD!!! :~(

Only Ten!

     School starts in 10 days, including today and I am both happy and sad. I'm happy because I will start fresh in a new school, not carrying any labels or past memories. No one there knows me except the dreaded Sharon Li. Everyone in my school labels me as the "Smart Kid" and several people actually wrote Smart Kid in reference to me. Next year I could reinvent myself as a regular student that just gets good grade. People in my class thinks that I study 24/7 and read everyday, however they don't actually know what I actually do. I never studied for a test last year, except for Mrs. Accardi's Poetry Test, because I don't read poems at all. I just don't want people to think that I am all smarts without a life, and actually my life is really fantasic. I do go out every weekend with friends, and just hand out. I like going to the mall with my friends, I like playing handball and basketball with them, I actually have a LIFE PEOPLE!!! I think that even my parents think that I study 24/7, because I don't actually ask them for permission to go out. Every Monday I get my allowance at night, and I cannot ask for any more money to go out for the rest of the week. So I can't seriously ask them "(Mom or Dad) can I have $          because I want to go out with friend." So they don't actually know what am I doing. Also, I lock my door when I'm home or not, and outside me door it's says "DO NOT KNOCK OR ANNOY ME! CALL OR TEXT ME IF YOU NEED ME!!!" So my parents don't actually knock on my door asking me to go downstairs to eat. They wouldn't actually know if I'm inside my room or if I'm hanging out with friends. Sometimes if they see me going out they would ask me where I'm going and stuff.
     I'm wondering if I'm going to meet new friends at Midwood, because only the dreaded Sharon LI, is going to Midwood High School with me. Why can't other friends of mine go to Midwood also? Midwood is a great high school and many people wants to enroll in it, but none of my friends wanted except the dreaded peson. I'm sad to leave all friends back in Brooklyn Studio. Vanessa, Khristyna, Roko, Matthew and other people aren't going with me to Midwood, and I'm really sad. I wish they would go but they won't. Other than wondering about meeting new friends, I'm wondering if I'll meet any friends on the first day of school. Also, am I going to make a fool of myself the first day of school? And am I going to be in good classes? Are the teacher I'm going to have nice? There are millions of other questions, but whatever. It'll be answer after the first week of school, so I'll probably write a post called "Questions Answered."
     Okay, back to the point that there is only 10 more days of vacation left. I am also sad because my SUMMER IS OVER..... I liked my summer, I spent each day going out or staying at home talking to friends or going to parties that my family holds. I still remember the midnight party that my aunt held. It started at 12 AM and ended at 8 PM, and we all just slept over. It was great, the lighting, the music, the food and everything was awesome. We also swam in the dark, with only lanterns to light the way back to the center, and the beautiful moon. Also, I like sleeping to 12 each day, and sleep at like 2 everynight. I don't want to give up this pleasant summer... The only thing that I regret is not going to the beach that much. I only went twice, and I didn't even get to tan myself. This year for some random reasons I want to tan myself. I wonder how I look tan? Would I look weird or okay, or just plain nice. Whatever, it doesn't matter because it's going to be fall soon and there is no more way to tanning myself.
     For the next ten days, I would spend the time with my family memebers because majority of summer I spent with friends. Tody for instance, my sister has to get new glasses, so I'm going with her and my mother to China Town in Manhatten, for her to see if she likes any frames. My father isn't going to drive us, so we have to take public transportation called the train and bus. However we're not going to be eating breakfast, because my sister wants to eat dumplings, so we're going to eat at a Chinese resturant either in Brooklyn, because that's where I am right now, or in Manhatten. I wonder what I'm going to eat later, but I know what's for sure, I'm totally eating those fried shrimp rolls which I would drench with the creamy thick yellow sauce that it comes with. I think that sauce is a homemade salad sauce or something. Other than that I'm so getting myself those mini beef spare ribs, with balck beans that are spicy. I just adore eating beef for random reasons. Also, I don't know how long I have to walk Chinatown for my sister to find the pair of glasses that she wants. There are like ten glass stores that she likes, so she would probably walk to every one. She loves the one called Optical Vision, and that green one on Mott Street.
     Whatever, probably on the train today I'll play the games Temple Run, Ovenbreak, Angry Birds, Angry Birds Space, and Fruit Ninja. For more random reasons, I'm re-addicited to Temple Run. I quit like several months back, because it was really redundant. However I lost the app, and had to reinstall it, and now Í want back all upgrades and characters. Enjoy your day!!!

Snooping Around

     I am a very curious person, and the TV show/cartoon Curious Gerorge reminds me of me when I was younger. Curious George gets into all kinds of trouble due to his curious personality, and that was what use to happen to me all the time, when I young. My mother said that when I was little, I would do stuff that was so stupid because I was curious about it. I remember once when I was younger and I was curious about how the TV screen, tasted so I licked it. That was a really weird incident because afterwards like 5 minutes my mother turned on the TV and she asked me why was the TV screen wet. I said, that I wondered how it tasted so I licked it. Then she gave me a whole lecture of how, your not suppose to lick anything in front of you that isn't suppose to be licked. I was I think like 4 then, and now when I think of it, I laught like crazy.
     Since I was little, I developed a really curious personality, and it can be both positive and negative in ways. Sometimes on the itnernet and I see something, I would probably be curious about ti, so I would like spend hours researching upon that subject. For example, this morning I saw a new atricle about a discovery of Ancient Roman or Greek bath houses, and I dwelled upon that subject about 2 hours. I learned the bath houses was a public bath house where people cleaned themselves publicly i front of other people inside the bath houses. I guess they didn't care about public nudity, but since I wasn't living in that time period so I could care less.
     I gained weird knowledges about weird topics, due to my curiousity. Other than it giving me weird knowledge, it also makes me nosy, because it makes me wonder what others are doing. Since I was little I am a nosy person, because I like to know what others are doing/making. I remember back when I was little, I was wondering what my mother was cooking on the stove. I was too short to see what was actually inside the wok. So instead, I climbed onto a chair, and since my mother was too busy cooking, (she was cooking like 3 things at once). My father was suppose to babysitting me and my sister, but he was too busy with my sister to notice also... I climbed onto the chair, and I found out she was cooking, but hwoever I stepped off the chair and lost my balance. I fell and scratched my hands and that hurt real bad.
     To now, I still like to know what other's are doing, so I snoop around, because I like when people don't know I'm there. Because if I'm there they would hide stuff that I shouldn't know. But I want to know so I snoop around. Sometimes I wonder what my sister is doing in her room, I would sneak quietly down the halls, down the stairs, into the halls, and out her room... Then I would quietly open her door, and none of the doors in our house creaks, so she wouldn't know. And if she's on her computer, she wouldn't notice because she faces the opposite wall. I would open like half an inch slowly, and I would snoop around. Plus, I wouldn't see anything private, because there's a lock on everydoor except the kitchen.
     I remember yesterday, I heard my neighbors like yelling/screaming, so I wanted to know what was going on. So I dug for my binoculars and I ran downstairs into the living room where I could see outside better. My window is kinda murky from the outside but the living room one is always clean and easier to clean the outside part. They didn't close their curtains so I saw what they were doing. I guess someone, which would be their son knocked down a vase because I remember that on that table there use to be a pinkish vase on it.
     Enjoy your evenings, and I've notice that the sun is gone when it's before 9 now, where like a month back it was still halfway up when it's like 9:15.

Life's Too Short

     The average life span  of a human being is between 60-80 years old depending on where you live. This short life of everyone is not enough, because there is always something else that we want to do. Yet however we don't know when our life is going to end, maybe tomorrow, what if tonight and we sleep and we don't wake up? What is tomorrow we get into a traffic accident and die? There aer hundreds of other what if's that I can think of already and it's "what if tomrrow I trip and hit my head and sustain a brain injury, and I die?" Death is our next great destiny, but everyone that dies still has things that they want to accomplish on Earth. Myself peresonally, I believe that everyone has a soul, and one's soul will stay on Earth, just in a different relam. And they can choose to stay in this relam, if their deeds aren't complete.
     Life's already too short, but yet day after day innocent lives are being lost through methods that are just plain dumb. I don't understand why, but I believe it's because of all the horrible things that humans have done, and karma is here and that's why war is waging in every corner on Earth. War doesn't just simply have to be between different coutnires, but instead there are also minituare wars. For exmaple, people fight for something that they want, and methods and tactics that they use aren't the best, and it can be accounted as war. Although it might take lives, I still believe that it is just plain stupid. Why can't the human race just use their short lives and spend every moment in peace and happiness? Why can't everyone just live in harmony? I can already think of a suitable answer to that, it's is due to people's greed. Just one's greed can cause a full fledged war. I don't understand why people must have greed, but however even the most flawless things have flaws...
     The creation of humans was a great thing, however what the human race have changed into is a disgusting thing. Before I believed that there was once harmony, I know that I sound unrealistic, but I believe that once everyone all around the globe, that everyone was happy. There might be some who had less than others, but they still enjoyed life. Some might've been in poverty but they still were happy because they accepted and embraced their poverty.  However people now have changed drastically. There are always some who lived in poverty, and wanted to change it so bad, that they completed horrific things, to reach the top. However even the richest cannot buy happiness. Happiness comes from within, just as how a beggar living off the streets, might be even happier than some wealthy business men with a gazillion dollars. Having three meals a day is like having the world to the beggar. Not everyone can understand what I'm saying because what I'm writing now is to remind myself, and share with you what I'm thinking this moment and second. I want to save this point in life when I am actually feeling very happy, not because of materialistic things, but because I have a loving family, a shelter, food, clothing and many other things that aren't even needed but I still have it.
     The more I think upon this subject it makes me think that even the richest that have the money to buy whatever they want might not be happy. As they have much money that is even needed, but they still want more. And once they have more they still want more, just because there is always something more.
     I don't understand what I was thinking while Im'm writing this post, bt I'm just writing what I'm tihnking right now. It's like 3 AM, and I was going to sleep but however, while I was lying in bed, I was thinking upon this subject and I really wanted to share this with you, because therer are many pople out there who aren't at all feeling happy because they might want something like new shoes or blah blah blah. But I want to ask you, do you have everything you need, not what you want. Needed items that are essential to survial, and Louis Vuitton purses aren't essential to survival. Writing this post has made me realized many things. One is that life's to short, so I should spend each day as it's my last. I know it sounds really chliche but it's true and you should relize this too. Second, instead of wanted new items, I should look at what I have, and compare what is really needed and what's not. Then before I buy something like the new Kindle Fire that I want, and ask myself "Am I going to regret  uying it, am I going to get broed of it?" The obcious answer is yes, so I don't think that I would buy it. Third, I shoul probably spend more time with my parents, because each day they are getting closer to their deaths, and once they die I truly regret not spending enought time with them when I was younger. Four, and I believe it's the most important because I suffered through it before. Everyone on this world was here for a reason, and don't think of youself as inferior towards other like a rich person or something. Only someone that feels inferior wants to make other feel worst to make them feel better. Even a beggar on the street had a reason to live in this world. Everyday people die, for example in the Afganistan War, on average one U.S. soldier dies each day. So it teaches us that no one knows what's going to happen next so we should live each day to it's fullest.
     Sorry my post was so long, but I had a lot of my mind. I better go to sleep, so enjoy your day and life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lost My Russian Viewer!!! :( Cry!!!!! (Update: Dreaded School Year)

     If you don't like long posts you would probably hate this post because it is probably the longest post that I wrote ever.

     I'm back like 2 days now, and still I lost my faithful viewer(s) from Russia! There isn't a single page view for the last serveral days from Russia. I now wonder if (s)he/they know that I'm back, and if no I wonder if they are ever going to check out my blog again. (S)he/they (I will be using that term a lot in this post) have actually been faithful viewers of this blog for several months actually. They account for about 38.26% of my total pageviews. Yep I actually did the math, you might find me dumb, but I am very technical as said from all my friends. My friend Vanessa actually wrote a blog post dedicated to me and my technicality. I tried throughout all my posts to keep my technical issues out because it would probably bore all you viewers, but heh I do what I want now. Throughout all these weeks of not blogging I have changed a lot. I learned to please others while not changing myself too much. My point of views of life has also changed from: everything has to be perfect, to: you can make only perfect imperfect things. In other words, if something is perfect there isn't a point to continue. I use to do too much on making what's perfect, even more perfect.
     Also, other than changing my motto, I also changed how I dress. I use to dress to please my mother, because usually she decides what I wear. And it is usually oversize t-shirts and jackets, and a pair of straight or baggy jeans. She really hates tight clothing, but I always wanted to wear it, and if I don't please myself and be unhappy. Why must I please others? Thats why my wardrobe now contains my favorite skinny jeans, and slim jeans. Other T-shirts that aren't oversized, but I'm still going to wear them because I'm still a fan of comfortable clothing. However I still enjoy wearing oversize jackets and sweatshirts, because I just like them.
     I'm also counting days of summer vacation left until the dreaded day which is: September 6th 2012, when summer vacation is offically over. On the day of September 6th is offical day that school starts for all New York Public Schools. Wait Vanessa, if you are reading this you must think that I am wrong, because on September 5th you have to pick up your program cards, and take new ID card photo, but technically the offical start of school is September 6th. Lucky me because I pick up programs on September 6th and can leave school, but sadly life isn't that simple. On September 6th, there would be assemblies that would be held, and would take like two hours. And then afterwards, program changes and everything would take place so another two hours would be taken. So in total it would take about 4 hours there. Sadly again, the freshman assembly would start at 11:30 AM, so if I stay for 4 hours, I will get to leave Midwood at 3:30. Sadly yet again, I live far from school, and I'm sure that no one would drive me, so I have to take the train, then transfer to bus, which would take another half to an hour for me. And I didn't add in the time that I have to wait for the subay and bus. Also, taking subway and transfering to bus would continue throughout the whole school year wasting about two hours of time each day which could be used for me to sleep!!!!!!!
     I wonder how from talking about my lost Russian view, I went to ramble about my dreading school year ahead. Yeah since I already rambled about the dreaded school year I'll keep on rambling about it. (At this point I will say that the update on the title was just ocmpleted and I'm going to keep rambling about the school year!) I'm wondering everyday whether next year I would meet new friends, because I already miss all my old ones. I miss Vanessa, Roko, Matthew, Khriisty, and even Vladimir Tod. There are so many more I would write, but I don't want my whole post to be filled with names. However I will never miss one person and that person is Sharon, because for the next four years I still have to endure it with her in Midwood High School. And sadly, I think that we would be in the same classes because we both have the same accelerated classes that we took last year. However happily, probably we would have different electives but proabably we would still have the same major classes like English, Geometry, ect. I do not make friends easily because I am actually a very hard person to make a friend of. I don't trust people easily and when I actually do, I think of them like siblings, because only siblings (which I only have one, and I don't trust her at all, oddly) can you trust with your deepest secrets. It took a really long time for me to meet and befriend them, and I don't really want to repeat the process again. However I guess that I have no choice, and I really don't want to meet bad friends, because sadly there are villianous people out there, and I don't want to repeat the same mistake I made in 5th grade.
     Other than fearing of meeting new friends, I'm also dreading about geeting good grades. Throughout Elementry, and Middle School, I was a star student. And now moving onto High School everynight I fear that next year I won't be getting good grades, because I'm scared that Midwood would be too hard to me. I don't want to be an average student, I like beig smart. It's like part of my identity, that smart kid, and I don't really want to lose it. As everyone will say, study more and you will be smart, but I don't work that way. If I study instead of gaining extra knowledge I confuse myself, and memories of inteligence that I remember would be scrambled, and I would be helpless. In other words, it confuses me and I get dumber.
     Also, next year I want to join a sports team, as I always enjoy swimming and tennis, I wonder if I should actually joing a team. However, I get out of school at 4:30 so if I actually join, I wo'n't get home until 7 or 8. I still have homework and projects to do probably, so I am really reluctant. But sports look good on a college application (yes even though I'm only going to be a freshman I worry about college. You might think I'm stupid, but I want to be ready by the time I acutally submit my college applications. Better safe than sorry!!!) Other than worrying about friends, my grades, sports I also worry if Midwood is safe. Since it's such as large school I wonder if people there do bad things such as drugs, and I'm scared that I would be pulled into their rings, and ruin my life forever. I feel as though I'm worry about it too much, but I am a worry wart.
     I actually right now feel a lot better, becaúse I'm actually expressing what I feel through blogging, and I like expressing my feelings. ALthough I do have to watch I say here, because I don't know all viewers, I still can say things that I won't tell my aprents. If I tell my parents of the above, they will probably tell me that if I don't want to go, then don't. Yep they aren't the most supportive as you might think. My mother is much better than my father, but I still cannot sya things to her that I would want. You might think that my life seems very hard, but I know that there are people's lives who are harder than mine a hundred, a thousand amillion times harder than mine. For example, people in areas such as third world places, would think that my worries are stupid, ebcause instad of worrying about having friends, they are worrying about whether they would have food for their next meal. I sometimes hate myself, because I have much wants, but then I would compare my life with others who are much sadder than me, and then I would feel guilty. And after I get what I want I would feel bad again, and say is it ven necesary? And then of course I would say no, and they feel even guiltier, and blame myself. I sometimes feel as though I need a therapist, but then after several hours, I would feel all happy again.
     Boy have I gone really off topic, but all this rambling does get alot off my mind. And I just remembered something, that last a lot I type I typed it as alot, and I remembered how my old Englihs teacher would pretend to puke when people spell it wrong. I do have a weird life.

     If you didn't actually read what I posted, I won't blame you, even I think it is really long!!! Good ay to all you viewer!!!
    

Losing Weight

     For random reasons, for the past several days I've lost weight drastically, and my mother isn't at all happy... I like it because throughout the summer I gained so much fat and my mother says I look better fat than skinny. I am no where near underweight and she still thinks that I am too skinny. I'm 5'5" I should be like 120 pounds. She always tries to make me fat, but I know better because in 6th and 7th grade I use to be a chubby child. I really didn't like to be fat because even my own family memebers made fun of me. However since now I ain't that fat anymore I got picked less, and I'm more confident of myself. I really like being skinny than fat, but my other always disagrees and now she says that I'm too skinny, and my face is shriveled up. I don't agree but she's my mother and she thinks that she is always right.
     I sometimes do wonder if all mothers believe that they know the best for their children, and even if they're wrong, they say that they are right. Right now I can contradict what I just wrote, and here's why: (It's another cousin story!!!)
    
     My cousin Michael, who's 26 years old right now finished college last year and now is an accountant. He went to a private school, and tution was like $40,000 each year, and it was a total waste. At first he wanted a medical degree, and it made sense because the school was famous for medical studies. However after just one year, he switched and instead of majoring in Med, he majored in math. He could've went to a public school where tution is like $25,000, and instead of offering great studies in Medical, it could've been offering great studies for math. So in 6 years of studies he wasted about $90,000 of tution fees. My mother told him to switch schools which would've benefited him, and benefited my aunt's wallet. But instead of helping my mother, my aunt told my mother that her son enjoyed the school, so he could stay. I thought that decision was really wrong, but who cares about my thoughts?

     Anyway, I somehow was talking about my cousin's tution fee where the point of this post was to share the good news of me shedding pounds off my body. Anyway, happy summer (while in New York it feels like fall or spring) to all you viewers.

Clear Night Sky

     Tonight again, I'm sitting by my window and looking in the sky. I think that I have several posts about the night sky, but for some reasons I love the night sky more than the afternoon. Tonights moon is beautiful. It looks so luminous but there are several dark spots on them that should be craters. Í forgot whether or not that the craters have water in them. Anyway, back to the moon'. The moon I suppose is there for one reasons, to porvide light in the dark for people in prehistoric times or before light was invented. I think that by using the place of the moon, you can know what direction you move in. For example, if tonight is the 15th of the lunar month the moon will always be over head, so you cannot tell the direction you're traveling. But on the first of the lunar month, the moon is on the weat (I think) so if you travel west, you will always see the moon, but if you travel east you won't.      Clear night skies also mean that you should be able to see the stars, and I crave to star gaze, but sadly I live in New York so it's now possible. I was looking on the Internet and found out that this hotel in the desert in the midwest is hte best spot to star gaze in the United States. I disagree however, because a hotel cannot compete with the comfort of your home. Well at least I think that my house is very comfortable. I love my room, I clean it everyday, and disinfect it with Fantastik everyday. Star gazing can also be done upstate which usually refers to state north of New York, in New York, and I like going upstate. We don't have a house upstate, but staying with my aunt upstate is still fun. I like to star gaze and sometimes spend hours at night looking at the stars. Usually when I look into the sky at night upstate, I can't really notice the constellation, because I don't spend everyday looking. Unlike my cousins who can say "Thats the Big Dipper, Littler Dipper, Polaris, ect..." I try looking in the direction they say but all I see are luminous stars.
     Sometimes I envy my cousins at night, but however you can't see stars in New York, because it is always so bright. Sometimes I wish New York didn't have street lights, but I know I would shudder if ther aren't any. For random reasons, I really dislike the dark, because I feel as if there are stuff that's dangerous that always lurks in the shadow. In the dark, since we aren't bats we don't really see/use super sonic sounds to locate stuff. So, we usually dwell in confusion if we don't have a flashlight. Even if we do, it wouldn't luminate the streets like street lights does. Anyway, back to the topic of the a clear night sky.
     Having clear night skies isn't available everywhere. In some places even if there aren't luminous lights around every corner of the street, the sky is so polluted you cannot see the stars. For example, I remember last time I saw photos of the night sky in China, it wasn't so stary. Instead it looks black and dul, like the sky in New York. The air is so polluted that there is no difference, between a cloudy night and a clear night, because pollutants cloud the sky. Sitting by the window, I like hearing what Mother Earth had to offer. In the area that I live, there are annoying crickets, but I enjoy hearing them. Also, at night sometimes bird are still awake and the usually sing /chirp on the trees. I enjoy the melodious sounds that they make, and I close my eyes and sway to their tune.

Good night to every reader, and sweet dreams!!!!!

I'm Back!!!!!

     Over the last several weeks, I haven't been blogging at all because I feel as though I lost all inspiration. However today I feel as though I found it all back, because of yesterday's dream. For some random reasons, over the last serveral days I have gotten plesant dreams, and I feel better. Also for some other random reasons, I have slept until like 2:30 PM each day. I think its because I'm sleeping at 2:00 AM each day, so I guess my body is just balancing it all out again, because I need at least 12 hours of sleep per day for me to not be cranky. That's why during summer vacation I'm always happier than I am during school days, because I get like 9 hours of sleep per day instead of at least 12. It reminds me, I have been counting for the past several days, of how many days I have left of summer vacation and it isn't pretty for me. I have just 15 more days of summer vacation left not counting today!!!! Wah!!!!! Wah!!!! Wah!!!!
     Back to the subject of why I'm back, I've been looking at my stats each day, and I have lost almost all viewers, and I sure hope that I do get them all back. Also, right now I'm really sad, because the wonderful photos that I've stored on my SD card is ruined because I kinda accidently drenched it on a pot of boiling water. It happened like this (if this was a video I would've put rippling effect and I would be looking up and say "It happened like this...")

          That day it was a Friday (I think) and I was cooking dinner, and I was making steamed vegetables. Like I always do, I take photos of what I'm cooking and I planned to upload all of them on when I'm going to blog again. However, due to me always being clumsy, I took out the SD card and wanted to put it back in my room so instead of putting it on the table I slipped and let go of my poor card. It fell into the pot of boiling water, and the card was ruined. I wasn't able to retrieve even a single photo, all my memmories of summer vacation gone!

     Anyway right now I have two happy things to say.
          1. I lost 3 pounds but I gained like 10 throughout my summer vacation, because I eat like crazy everyday.
          2. My butt hurts right now because I slipped on a puddle of water that I supposedly wiped on the floor of my room. I slipped and fell on my butt in like 1/2 a second, and ouch!!!!