Horror

     There are several reasons to why I do not like to watch sad, scary and other depressing movies. First reason is that if I watch a sad movie such as Anne Frank I will never get it out of my head. Second, I will remember the scary or sad parts for life, for example, when I think I was like 8, my cousin showed me of a movie, where a guy walks down the staircase, but however, he has no knowledge of a woman ghost, who is crying in the corner, and the whole scene turns green. Third, sometimes when I watch a sad movie such as Anne Frank, I will ocmpare her and me, and whenever I get something specials such as a new pair of $30 jeans, I feel really bad. Well this whole post is mostly about me, after watching Anne Frank like 2 weeks ago. Almost everyday when I shower, I always think of stupid things like me flying, me being rich, me being a king, but however now, after I watched Anne Frank, I always think of:

•  What if the next day in America, they started rounding up Asians?
•  What if I have to go to concentration camp?
•  What if I have to go in hiding?
•  What if my mother or father dies?
•  What if I die?
•  What if..........

     You get what I mean, I'm now being haunted by that movie. I keep think of Anne in the concentration camp, and I'm going crazy. I feel like I want to go to counsueling but however, I don't want to. Seriously, I feel really down, and I'm scared what will happen next in life, would it be good or will I have to suffer. I know I should treasure every moment of my life, but whenver I try, it always ends up bad. I don't know how I'm going to overcome the graphic images....... (and I'm glad I didn't watch till the end).................