Centipede!!!

     Although I said that I lost all inspiriation to blog yesterday, I just had to make this post to share one of my biggest fright of all time.  Although you might of had guessed form readig the title, I am really afraid of centipedes... They are just so gross, it totally defies everything with like 30 legs and moving around so fast. To tell the truth they are so icky and they scare the fright out of me...
     Like half an hour ago, I saw a centipede under my bed and I tried to kill it, but it got awau and now I'm freaking out. I use like a whole can of lysol spray (even though it doesn't even kill it) and sprayed everywhere in my room. I'm wondering if it is still under my bed. I used a flashlight and still couldn't find it anywhere, and I'm scared that throughout the night it might climb onto my bed and bite me or something. I'm even more scared of it climbing into my mouth, and me eating it. I don't know if I sleep with my mouth open so I'm scaring myself right now. Currently since I'm blogginga nd you're reading this, right now instead of my feet on the ground, I'm sitting on my chair with my feet where I'm suppose to sit on. So instead of my butt being on the seat itself, it is actually on the place where your back is suppost to be. So I'm sitting on the back on the chair with my feet where my butt is suppose to be. Is it confusing?
     Since I was young I was really scared of all bugs and stuff. I still remember several months back where I saw another house centipede and I freaked out like crazy. I ran from my room screaming all over the house, and oddly my father was in my room, and he luckily he killed it for me. I don't get it, I clean my room like everyday. I make sure there isn't any food scrap anywhere. I wipe the floor, disinfect and do everything to keep my room clean, but still there are bugs in my room...
     Back to my phobia of bugs. I don't understand but somehow I'm not afraid of stuff like snakes, but little bugs scare the creep out of me. Whenever I see any bug, and yes any bug, and I freak out (except at school because there are people around me). Somehow I don't freak out in public because that would be very embarassing. Anyway I'm still sitting on my chair and not putting my foot on the ground and waiting for that centipede to show up so I can kill it...

Leaving

     The post is entirely inspired by my great friend Vanessa leaving her blog for days to weeks. I find it a loss for myself, because I enjoy reading her blog because usually it is quite interesting. Since that she has left, for the past several days I was thinking upon leaving also. I feel as though blogging has changed for me, because when I started blogging I enjoyed the sensation of expressing my thoughts, but for the past several days, I have lost that sensation. I feel as though the experience of blogging has changed from being fun to a job. For the past several weeks, I made sure that I blogged once everyday, and for some reason I kept doing that. I have completely lost all inspiration of new posts, so for the next several days to weeks, I will recover myself through spending time with my family and friends.
     Okay, as you read this far, this is probably the last post in the next several days to week because this is the last stimulus I have. Everything in this world has a begining and ending point. Humans have a birth date where they are born and humans have a death date, where their life cease to exist. Not only do animals and living creatures have an ending but also so does legacies. Since that I am Asian I will talk about Chinese history. There were many great dynasties throughout Ancient China, and each dynatsty led to another. Every dynasty had it's own ideas and throughout that dynasty the idea changes. Changes are happening everyday and every moment that everything lives. As that idea changes it might lead to greatness or hell. Dynasties change when the line of ruler change, and usually that happens through a weak king, and once that happens all ideas of the previous dynasty is dead. That shows that point I'm trying to explain, not only does life leave, but also ideas and other stuff like knowledge will leave Earth.
     Books are the very remanent of knowledge that people want to be eternal, such as the monks of the Middle Ages kept copying books of previous time, so they will not be lost. Some books are very rare and there is only one copy left. Once that one last copy is gone, that knowledge within it leaves. Before books were invented, people kept the knowledge and passed it to younger ones through teaching and ect. Yet people is an unrealiable source because not everyone is fully truthful. If someone carries history throughout their generations, sometime they will leave out parts of defeat or humilitation and that knowedge will leave Earth forever.
     How did I get so sidetracked??? Anyway, the point of this post was suppose to talk about family leaving. As one ages, they grow old, and must accept their final point in life, death. Death can be interperted two different ways, as one's end point, or as one's transitioning point where they leave to a different world. Truthfuly, I am religous and believe in life after death, but someties I wonder where that is. As one leaves Earth, where are they going, another dimension on Earth?  Another world? The list that I can make is endless, and as one leaves, it creates an aura of sadness upon the dead one's close family, and friends. Yet as human is not perfect, we usually keep that sadness inside of us, and never leave. Even as one accepts the leaving, we don't truly forget it, and at times where we are weakess, we are overwhelmed by a feeling of sadness. If we don't handle the sadness correctly, we might make horrible choice such as sudicidal<-- (is that a word?) choices. Whatever I just wanted to write this post to tell people that you must let go of one's death and not hide the sorrow within you, because sorrow can always escape the strongest of cages that one can generate. Even the slighest crack it acn go through and cause unbelievable damage to one's body. Instead letting it out through differnet methods, such as crying, sweating is more healthy...

Expectance

     I cannot believe it, the more I tihkn the more angry I am because I can never live with it. I told my parents that I wanted to go play/learn basketball from my friends at the park, and you know what were their response? It was this "This is very unexpected, we would never expect this from you..." In other terms, it meant no, and that they thought that I would never have any interest in sports except tennis, swimming and ping pong. What is with people and their expectance, you will never know what will happen next so you should not expect anything. But nooooooo, according to my parents my whole life I am going to be smart, and be some type of scientist who would earn $70,000 or more and buy a big house for my wife and have two children. They expect so much, what if I change my want and become so other stuff like a baseball player or something (it wouldn't happen probably because I love science...) People expect too much, like my parents at the beggining of 8th grade, they expected me to get fours (which is the top grade) at Math, Science and English State Test. Also for me to get 90+ on the Algebra and Earth Science Regents and the Spanish Proficency.    
     Living in a world where you are suppose to be smart, and people all think that you will get top grades, is a really hard and demanding world. People expect me to study all day, and stay cooped up in my room and read, but I want to live a life also. It's not like that I am anything different, I am human too. That's why, I sneak out when my parents aren't home, I remember when I was younger (like before I started Middle School) my parents didn't expect sooooo much from me at academics. They were very relaxed at my school grades and they just didn't want anything below an 80 and 3's on state tests, and they were happy... But now all they want are 90's+ and 4's on state tests, which cause a lot of stress. Even my teachers put stress on me, I remember when Senora Borrero, told me that she expects more from me because I have the talents and I should use them... In other words, you could do better so get your butt out of your seat and study.
     Why can't people treat me like normal, that's why next year in high school, I will be an average kid getting 80's and stuff, and not be a nerd (which I am not one). Even my best buddies think that I study when I am at home, which I do not!!! If I look back when I was small, the last test that I actually studied at all was when I was in 3rd grade, when I kept doing math problems before a test. From then on, I don't study because I found on that whenever I study it causes stress on me, and I do worst than when I don't study. So when I was in fourth grade, I didn't even study for a single test, even state tests. I didn't even study for the regents this year, and if people asked if I studied I just said yes, because if I told them th truth that I didn't study they would think that I am lying. So I just said when they expected and lied to make them happy.
     Wow, this post is really long, I guess that I had a lot on my mind for the past several days, because the last several weeks, the posts I wrote were really short like a paragraph. But I like writing longer more detail orientated posts, so I will do what I want....
      Talking about Midwood, on the Seventeenth of July, I went to Midwood High School to take my picture for my School ID, and I met Sharon somehow. We were even on the same bus (which I took because my lazy grandfather said it was too early to drive and he would crash the car because he's too tired). Throughout the whole time there, Sharon was complaining about missing Vanessa, how next year there will not be Vanessa, how she will never find a friend like Vanessa, how Vanessa will not be there and yell at me (because I said something that Vanessa would find yellable), how Vanessa will not be there and say "I need a lolipop", and how she can say to Vanessa "No you want a lolipop". In other words she really missed Vanessa and I had to spend like half an hour hearing her say that in like a hundred different way... I'm proofreading this, and I got really off topic...

Sterotypical Photo

     I just found this photo on Facebook and I think that it is utterly absurd with the meaning. I followed the direction, and found out that I was gay, so whatever. It is totally wrong with males, and even worst for females.

My State Tests

     For some random reasons, only students in NY, and several other states make them take state tests. So thanks to me living in NY, I'm part of the victims on the target. Luckily this year I passed with flying colors. The scores has been released and I looked them up, at Aris Parent Link, (link below) and I found my score. I am very happy with myself, and I want to buy a new tablet to make myself happy... I got a 4 in Math, 4 in English, and a 4 in Science.... Yah!!!!

Link: https://arisparentlink.org/parentlink

P.S. I want to give a shoutout to all my viewers because I finally passed my 200th pageview milestone...

Cesars Bay

     Yesterday, I went running on the trail of Cesars Bay with my friends, and let me tell you that it was extremely long and tiring. The trail itself is 5 miles, and I had to run there and back, so I ran 10 miles yesterday. Right now my leg still hurts from it and I think that I'm getting a callus, so I'm going to got to Rite Aid later, and buy those salt thingy, that makes your leg feel sooo much better. I took so many photos of myself and the water, and I will be posting the photos sometime next week, because right now I'm feeling lazy. I'm wondering if the salt is on sale, because I only have like $20 left from my month's allowance.

My Job

     My job isn't one that I actually get paid, but instead it's a hobby of mine that I like to do. That hobby is blogging, and I'm kinda making it my job. Actually I can get paid by google, with adsense, but I don't want to. Instead of making money, I just like to write and share my life with you. Right now I'm hungry and I want to eat, but I just went out running with friends, so I can't or else I will be really fat. I'm thinking of blogging once every weekday, and on weekends, I can just save whatever I wrote for the weekends. Yeah, I guess I would do that...

The Two Videos

     Finally, I decided to not be lazy and take the videos out of my cell phone. Well, I could've just uploaded it directly from my cell phone, but I always use my laptop so to keep the tradition, I just pulled it out of my cell phone. I really liked these videos, it portrays the serenity of the park really well. I hope you enjoy them as much as I do...

Collage in 5 Minutes...

     I decided to challenge myself in making a collage in 5 minutes. Sadly I didn't accomplish it in 5 minutes. From taking the photos to decorating it took me about 10 minutes. I did it really fast and didn't spend much times so it looks really crude and not beautiful. Also, I didn't have alot of ideas, but next time I'll make a better collage. I'll make one in about another 2 or 3 days...

Sorry, but the picture is on my other blog, which is restricted to only friends. If you want to view, click here: http://weirdbuckettailphotosedition.blogspot.com/

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Photos of Me

     According to my parents, showing my face to the public is dangerous, so from now on, any photos containing my face would be moved to my private blog which is linked below. Audience is limited to people who view my blog that I know. Please do not share the photos because I can get in big trouble from my parents. My father can track my photos so please don't copy to anywhere. I don't get it, what harm can it cause, but I trust my parents so I'm doing what they say. I will probably update the private blog whenever I get new photos containing my face. (It won't be often) If you want to view the blog comment and put the email address that you're blog is listed under. and I"ll add you to the audience... Have a good night!!!

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